Okay, I've been holding this back for like a month now, and i'm sorry for venting here.. I know I said i'd stop dragging my personal issues onto dA, but I just desperately need to vent at the moment.. so forgive me.
I feel like absolute shit.. I know it's important to look ahead and not let the past get you down, but I just can't do that for some reason. The last month or two of my life has just been filled with regret, misery, and depression. Certain things I can't stop thinking about, and wished I had never done, or atleast did differently. It never goes away, and it makes me so upset I can't stand it. It's like.. I just sit and think "what have I done?.." or "What if..?" and that maybe.. maybe some things would have been better off for others if I had never came around or got involved at all, you know?
And i'm so ridiculously paranoid it's pathetic. I worry so much about losing people I care about.. Half the people I consider my friends, don't even bother speaking to me anymore, and I get so scared of more people getting the same way with me. I have separation anxiety disorder, so like, not getting to be with or losing people I care about, or even just the thought of it, is the most excruciating experience to me..
For awhile, I thought it was just a phase I was going through, that i'd eventually get past all this.. but I never did. It's so hard for me to handle the way i've felt lately.. It's just so hard.. I just want things to be better, and to get over my emotional issues for good. I don't know how much more of it I can handle..
*slaps his butt*
...THAT IS ALL.
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They call me Mrs. Fahrenheit. 8D
REST YOUR WEARY HEAD, AND LET YOUR HEART DECIIIDE
IT'S SO EAAAASY
WHEN YOU KNOW THE RULES
IT'S SO EEEEEAAAASYY
ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS FALL IN LOVE
PLAY THE GAME
EVEYBODY PLAY THE GAAAAAAAAME OF LOOOVE.
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They call me Mrs. Fahrenheit. 8D
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They call me Mrs. Fahrenheit. 8D
...to be continued?
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They call me Mrs. Fahrenheit. 8D
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They call me Mrs. Fahrenheit. 8D
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